October 16th, 2005

Subject: MY BABY! Time: 09:53 pm

Aidan Bradley October 14, 2005 1:10pm 7lbs 14oz 21in Here is a link to porter's Myspace.... there is a pic of him there! http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=3326245&Mytoken=812F220B-14F8-107A-E563DAFE30C3F93F9966281

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March 26th, 2005

Current Music: la la Subject: assholes. Time: 07:13 pm Current Mood: bitchy

my lj is now offically friends only. ppl who like to "try" and talk shit just annoy me. so ....

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March 23rd, 2005

Current Music: passions :) Subject: porter's back!! Time: 02:18 pm Current Mood: mellow

yay! now i will actually be able to get some sleep. its nice to have him back. he was all excited to go to work today thou :( i don't know what that was about. i've been doing better. i mean i still get sick but its only be a few times a day. it has been everything i eat thou :( but today i haven't!! i thought i was going too. but it never came ... thank you! alright well, i'm going to go lay down and finish watching my show <3 ps. anthony and i got on the convo of "IT" (if you don't know who i'm talking about i'll tell you if you ask me) and he said that she IT is a whore and and skanky ... it was a great convo. you just should of heard it. and to think i was right this whole time about IT ... haha!!! i love being right ... especially about this.

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March 19th, 2005

Subject: i lost 5 lbs!!! Time: 04:09 pm Current Mood: sore

normally that would be a great thing ... normally. so, yesterday was quite interesting. since i was puking for 24 hrs straight my mom decided to call my dr. and when we got there. she was like "you need to go to the hospital" yay ... except not. i was very badly dehryated. so i had to go there and get an IV. those things hurt sooo bad. i had to spend the night there also. which was just crappy. i was all alone. and porter's bitch ass is in ny :( my whole right arm is swollen from the IV i had 8 bags!!! i also got some med to help w/ my nausea. but they gave me nothing for my neck and ear :( my dr also told me to take off work she wrote a note and gave me 10 days off! i'll probably do nothing but thats ok. as long as i don't go back to the hospital i dont care. alright i feel a lil nauseous so its time to go lay down <3

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February 27th, 2005

Current Music: bad boys Time: 08:11 pm Current Mood: anxious

so, i didn't go to work today. and i missed a meeting. oops. i was sick literally all night long. and to make it worse porter's bitch ass wouldn't get up w/ me. i haven't done anything all day. every time i move i feel nauseous. :( tmw morning is my dr appt. i'm a lil scared. wish me luck. i'm going to go lay down. <3 p.s. i want a myspace lol. its so cool i feel left out. haha.

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February 25th, 2005

Subject: haha Time: 12:10 pm

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February 21st, 2005

Subject: ugh Time: 12:17 pm Current Mood: pissed off

i'm pissed. why can't i tell MY friends whats going on? instead someone has to go and spread the news like its their own. ... tanner. thanx you had no right to tell MY friends whats going on in MY life. who else did you tell? should i even bother telling shell i'm sure she already knows grrrr. thats *so* f'ed up.

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February 17th, 2005

Current Music: bike scene ~ tbs. Subject: haha. Time: 11:02 am Current Mood: grateful

i'm happier now. i love you *so* incredibly much. :)

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February 16th, 2005

Subject: its official... Time: 05:14 pm Current Mood: scared

i'm broken. i can't take anymore of this so i'll let you be enjoy your fling. rebound relationships never work. besides what you are doing to me same thing that you've exiperenced. shitty. for both of us. but i'm done. i can't handle crying like crazy every single night over you when you don't care about me. but i can't watch on the sidelines and hurt like this every day its just not healthy. so, i love you w/ every breath i take but i'll leave you alone if thats what you want. </3

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February 15th, 2005

Time: 05:20 pm

i think that you are lieing to me. why? i hate this sooo much. </3

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February 14th, 2005

Subject: please keep it coming ... Time: 10:14 pm

first ... kill me please? i'll pay you its like every day something else goes wrong. becomes worse. wtf is going on so, who wants that $$ grrrrrr. </3

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February 13th, 2005

Subject: what more could go wrong? Time: 07:40 pm

my life is shitty. why? i just got in a car accident. no, it wasn't my fault. and no, i'm not ok.

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February 11th, 2005

Current Music: here w/out you ~ three doors down. Subject: i'm so broken. Time: 11:40 pm Current Mood: crushed

its really sucks when you can imagine marrying someone and spending the rest of your life w/ them. but yet, you two can't stand each other and both are doing things to hurt the other. i feel so crappy about how everything has turned out no matter how sorry we both are i know that we'll probably never get back together at the rate we are going and all i mean. and everytime i think of that it makes me sick. i know there is really no point in writing all this b/c you could give two shits but yeh. i'll try and stop from now on. </3

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February 10th, 2005

Current Music: *silence* Subject: anthony ... Time: 12:46 am Current Mood: morose

lets get some things straight you still are my heart no matter what you choose to go on a date w/ i just don't understand and thats fine b/c i know damn well you don't understand me at all anymore and it sucks i can't sleep anymore its so weird. i'm perfectly fine w/ dealing w/ our situation but you can't be an asshole to me all the time. i mean, i thought that we've been throu A LOT { don't make me remind you :) } and i just never thought that you would talk to me the way you do or talk about me like you do. i don't know if you decide to comment on this make it a lil decent. please. i will always love you no matter what you say to try and hurt me or what you do and maybe ... one day we'll both understand where each other is coming from. <3333

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February 8th, 2005

Subject: you're such a slut!!! Time: 10:48 am

you don't know what you've started.

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January 29th, 2005

Current Music: heaven - dj s Subject: just a quickie Time: 08:03 pm Current Mood: depressed

this is my letter to you ... it's not going to be long i'm sorry i just have to quickly tell you how i feel i'm sorry i screwed things up. i hate the way this turned out i really do love you w/ everything i have. i'm not sure why i can't show you i'm sorry i'm an asshole and i wish things were better b/t us. i hope that you'll still talk to me i think that we have gone throu too much just to let it end in a horrible way. you know. i hope you also won't screw me maybe i'll realize how stupid i really am being. i just want you to forgive me. alright, thats all. i still love you. </3

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January 11th, 2005

Current Music: the biggest loser. Subject: i love *you* ... so just stop. Time: 08:44 pm

i'm really frustrated. i can not believe the way anthony is acting. its utterly ridiculous!! its like i can't have friends that are guys. what is the big deal? theres no reason to get all jealous, or whatever you call it. you already have me ... hello?! what irks me the most is him getting upset about me talking to mike d. there are like 2x a billion reasons why. grrrrrrrrrrrrr i'm so aggravated. wtf. i just don't get it. i can't talk about it anymore. anyways, shell come pick me up in march. k! lol :) we'll party and i dunno other fun stuff. <3 you. timmy ... where are you i feel like speaking w/ you. hurry up and get off work ... damn you. lol :) alright i should shower and perhaps feel better. <3 p.s. anthony ... *YOU* are... the one person that i want to spend the rest of my life w/. we've been thru sooooo much. you've been there for me thru out everything, that it just really hurts that you would act this way. so, please just stop and think about how you are acting. i want you .. and only you.

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January 4th, 2005

Time: 05:02 pm

happy bday mike d! i hope you have some fun today!! and ... stop playing tag w/ me a-hole :) <3 p.s. shell call me back.

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December 11th, 2004

Current Music: you're a mean one, mr grinch ... Subject: "he even took ... Time: 08:08 pm Current Mood: geeky

... the last can of who hash." haha :) i just absolutely love more than anything 'how the grinch stole xmas' (cartoon version) hah! i'm so old school. its just so hard to resist. <3

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December 5th, 2004

Subject: why now? Time: 07:16 pm Current Mood: enraged

i hate strongly dislike Porter. end.

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